It's midnight and I am blogging. Some techno songs playing softly as I do not want to stir up any... "problems".

Just did a major file revamp. So far my mathematics and physics files were in good order. Chemistry more or less. Biology, well, was terrible, and so I re-organised them and now everything is snugly inside that green file, as well as one lone SPA worksheet which was transferred to pink Bio SPA file. Bought two files just now, social studies now has a nice proper orange file to store stuff. History was revamped and now everything is placed in the correct order for easy referencing. Hmm. That sums it up. I don't know if I should use my empty files for storing English lit, English, and Chinese. Ah never mind. Things are organised well, that is most important.

Speaking of Chinese, I am fucked for Chinese man. Lowest in class for Chinese exam was terrible enough. But today, after receiving the compo on the 男子打死小狗 I was liked eh WTF man. Chinese standard as in 语文表达 mine is average, could use more sophisticated vocab though. But the killer was the out-of-point. I thought the nan zi was some "student" and that screwed it up. Didn't give proper "建议" and the in the beginning, instead of writing why I condemn the man for his actions and why they are wrong, I wrote three paragraphs of "what would happen if we did not correct the problem" bullshit. So come to think of it, my content was seriously out of point, even if the teacher were to mark leniently. But well, fuck it then, I will do my best to improve. Anyway, in Chinese remedial. First time in my whole life I ever had to attend remedial, but hey, I expected this. 3-3 is not 2-2 2007, because there are a whole lot of high-standard Chinese people as well as the three untouchable communists. Good. Chinese remedial = improved Chinese if I, WORK HARD. Knn la. But well, everything is all about working hard so why tf am I saying this ah heck care.

Last thing. Mr Goh caught me and Colin red handed at the student lounge. The "pon TAF" operation went off without a hitch, just like previous times. But this time, well, the "authorities" at the PE office decided that our "records" were rather dubious, and so, they decided to launch a raid to catch the offenders red-handed. Goh Yong Hang, his mind full of ideas to catch people who skip TAF, ran to the canteen before running to the student lounge. He seemed like a police officer raiding some sleazy pub and arresting drug dealers who were blended in with the crowds. Well, the "sleazy pub" was the student lounge and the "clubbers" were the students. Colin was rather obvious in the lounge, and so Mr Goh managed to make Colin stand and Colin just did so - there was no escaping! Mr Goh had the exit covered. Colin decided to drag me in too despite the fact I was doing a good job hiding, but in any case, if I was caught, I would have dragged Colin in too,, so of course I don't blame him at all. In any case Mr Goh said a whole lot of stuff, and come to think of it, I will just starve myself during recess. Well, yea should be. Then I will bring my books to the library on third floor and just spend my recess studying stuff I may need to study, or chionging homework which had not been completed or just given by the teachers, or perhaps dozing off! Yes, the library has air-con and I should take full advantage of that. Anyway... as long as I don't eat, nothing wrong with that eh. Colin may be doing so too, although he will clean the "projector" on the first day.

Shit. I am feeling pissed yet happy! Yay.

Dreaming nowadays. For no good reason. Anyway, I am sure everyone knows what a feeling of deja vu is like. Well nowadays deja vu sweeps over and tries to make me submit to it. Deja vu is one of the worst emotions you can ever have and will make you lose focus. Freak it man. Shit. But anyway, deja vu can also be your friend. Does it not come knocking on the door of your mind when you look through photos? So enjoy it too.

Midnight approaches. Hitler is shouting in a techno song I am listening to. Speaking of Hitler, I admire him to a certain extent.

China scholar Cao Shengmao is obviously trying to beat the whole class. With his eloquent Mao Zedong style Chinese, Einstein and Newton level physics and mathematics, Bunsen chemistry, sex maniac Biology standard, as well as propaganda soldier like English, he is a formidable opponent. No, he is no longer a thief of marks and a sly fox. He is an imposing figure, who will dominate the class with a fist of iron, and his steely determined gaze will make him the pet dog of all teachers. Argh.

Anyway, very happy about something. Just hope that the thing that was displayed for more than a year will not be exchanged for something else, as I really hope to be the same. I have been procastinating uselessly, but why is it that it is always I who makes the move? I will continue to do so until my desired result is reached. I have my plans, and they will balance my other plans and activities.

Funny paragraph. Few would understand. Crap, why is the sentence above sounding so cliche and "rebellious"? Because the aforementioned feeling has long overcome me, but it has always been at peace with my other so called "emotions", and the well-balance is what has caused the existence of my current situation. Anyway, I am the master of my so-called "emotions" and I can order them anytime. Yet they can order me though, at times when I lose my rationality. But I am not being irrational with what I am hoping to get, am I? Continue the practice that used to be carried out thanks, I have always enjoyed it.

School opens its doors tomorrow. Never mind...

There is a lion dance above my house. 5th floor. Very loud. Too loud for me to watch it. Don't forget its in a building, very tight spaces, so the sound echoed like mad and I couldn't take it so I left. But speaking of lion dance, Happy Chinese New Year to all! Woo

It's still Chinese New Year since it last for 15 days, and so enjoy Chinese New Year while you still can! Although the holidays are over. Well, never mind.

Anyway, my Internet Explorer screwed up and for some reason I can't type in a website, it will change the thing to http:/// for no good reason. Stupid.

Happy CNY!

Doing your IC is very depressing. I had a panic attack, followed by a sense of melancholy inching from all directions, before I started laughing to myself like some retarded fellow. The cycle repeated itself and I was driven mad for a while. School work not making things any better. Bryan Ching, Cao Shengmao, and some teachers and people seem to be making an all-direction attack on me, in a brazen attempt to drive me to wit's end. Nah, I am imagining things. Go drink a glass of water. Bye.

A very unlucky day for me indeed. Made me damn pissed off. Chinese New Year post will be on another day since CNY lasts for 15 days. This post has nothing nice.

1) I only got 14/20 for History. WTF WHEN OTHER PEOPLE WERE GETTING 16, 17, AND SOME HONG SHING OR WHATEVER GOT 18!!! What the fuck is wrong man.

2) I lost to A CHINA SCHOLAR in, of all subjects, ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE OR NOT. Cao Shengmao with his snake-like grin and hypocritical words, managed to get an A2. I got 34.5 and just one more HALF MARK and I would have gotten that A2. Screw Cao Shengmao. I cannot lose to him.

3) Mr Suah Yee Leng told me that I didn't do well for Higher Chinese and asked me what was wrong. I was horrified, did I fail? Cannot be. The test wasn't a fucking difficult one. What is going on? I thought that test was supposed to be easy? And I compared answers with some others and it was the same! How could I get a fail or a borderline fail? Higher Chinese eh. NB CB. Better improve la. Everything will become clear when the papers are returned.

4) I come to the shocking discovery that Bryan Ching the genius has beat me in all subjects excluding Biology. My physics and chem were only average. Fuck it. My mathematics is an A1 but not as high an A1 as I would like it to be. Seems like maths is my friend. And I thought it was my worst enemy when the graphs were taught.

5) I was startled to find out I was back in the TAF club! Nabei la! CCB! I should have expected it anyway. But somehow I have more stamina, physically I am stronger and fitter than last year. Anyway Ian Chew told me. Colin. Joseph Wong and Gary to report during recess for "games" Ok so it isnt physical training but games. Nowadays I think I have adapted to the late recess, so I might be able to cope with this. Only thing I worry about is WHAT game. If its floorball or soccer, I would be fine, although that would mean playing under the scorching afternoon sun and doesn't sound very pleasing. But at least, they are fun. If it's basketball, ccb I don't come liao la. I hate basketball, fucking not fun and the heat would be unbearable, unlike in floorball or soccer where because the game is fun the heat is tolerable. Even better if it was table tennis! I would definitely come for the games everyday if its table tennis. Only one table tennis table that I know, near the dance studio. Don't know if they would allow it to be used. But who am I going to play with? Colin? Joseph?

6) Mr Thong is leaving. Such a fiery teacher with interesting lessons! And a typical maths-teacher look! And he's leaving and Mrs Long is coming back! Mrs Long doesnt have the typical maths teacher look and the voice and she reminds me of a woman in a bus, making my life miserable. Hopefully though she will be interesting and most importantly teach concepts well, and I think with her years of experience she will. Although I will confidently say she cant measure up to an inch of Mr Thong in terms of how interesting the lessons are. Mr Thong is pacificblue_182@hotmail.com by the way.

Ok. Said enough. Now I am going to write me english narrative writing which is 30% I think and triumph over Cao Shengmao the snake, the sly fox, who is a thief of marks!

恭喜发财！

I will post on Sunday as I have no time, leaving soon. Believe me, I want to make my Chinese New Year Post, but CNY lasts for 15 days right?

Sorry for the unparagraphed post. Nvm. Good to train ur reading skills.