Today is the 1st of February. Which is my birthday. Shit. Damn. Whether I like it or not I am now 15 years old. Which is argh. Currently I am having a lot of cases of flashbacks at almost every single thing. It rained today. Most of the time, I would not like it. But now I like it. What's happening? Of course. Who does not like the rain. These days with all the heavy rain I feel very happy. Don't know why. When I see that the sky is yellow, I get damn pissed off. I go nuts. Reminds me of not so nice days. However, come to think about it, I really wish I can go back to the 1990s. Yes, the wonderful 1990s! The only thing I can remember about the 1990's are good things. When I used to stay in 836. When I didn't need to go to school. Hahahahaha. Then comes the primary school days. Primary 1 and 2 are forever etched in my mind as very good times. P3 and P4 were ok. When I think about it, I want to fly back. P5-P6. Greatest primary school days. Then there is sec1 and sec2. Screw sec1. Did so badly. But then again the memories from sec1 cannot be forgotten. Sec 2, although just last year, seems like the distant past. Sec 3 now. Screw it! What the fuck is happening? I lose my temper more often! Is my case just like any other "teenager" out there? I refuse to call myself that name. Don't know why. Rather be called sec3 student or boy or xiao didi. Which may not always be appropriate but I prefer it that way. I lose my temper everytime something gets in my way of completing things. Especially studying. Screw everything which distracts me. Damn. In any case. I go nuts more often and I think my mind is in a little need of some help. Maybe. Anyway, the jump from sec 2 to sec 3 is definitely fucking huge. And with the fact that everything happens earlier, people don't have much time. Haha. Celebrated actual birthday alone today. Tomorrow only 1 person is coming to my house. Even then he may or may not come. In any case, its definitely different from last year. Completely different. But I already told myself last year that it was probably one of the last time I could enjoy my birthday properly. Because sec3 begins and hell begins and lasts until...end o levels. Soon enough, a levels comes along to kill you and the murderer NS comes and takes away your childhood. Then you become 20 years old at the end of it. That means. Adulthood? Fuck! No way man. No matter how the times change, I cannot change. Maybe I have to. But I avoid unnessary changes. Bad on psyche. A little disappointed that I didn't get back what I hoped to get back. Been harbouring it since around September 2006. Been one year and four months since I had it. Don't kill it. I am waiting. Ok people, my post today seems retarded. But nevermind. I am a little depressed as I don't know what to do. I do not feel like playing games. I do not feel like mugging. I do not feel like reading about communism. When this limbo state occurs, I listen to techno and blog crap. So actually, not much of what I said above makes much sense. You'll need to read between the lines! (I got 9/10 for English journal. On par with Ching. Good. Must continute that way.) Happy birthday to myself. Bye bye blog readers.

Argh, how to study for a Higher Chinese test which has nothing but 理解问答 and other sections which have nothing to do with words you have to study? The answer is, its impossible, just depends on your ability.

In any case, I hope to get decent marks for English, screw that test. I am having a pipe dream of 100% for social studies. Thinking about it, since SS is just 15 marks test and that 15 marks test is 100% of CA1, full marks of 15/15 translates to 100%. Indeed, I hope to get full marks but I might have lost marks on source-based question. For history, an A1 is what I am aiming for. For Physics, not too sure but I hope to get an A1 too. As for Chemistry, many people felt that it was easy and it wasn't THAT difficult so yes, I hope for another A1. Biology was not as difficult as I expected but still it wasn't a walk in the park either so I'm setting my hopes at A2. Maths was the worst because I had made a fucking mistake by forgetting to label the fucking graph. As for coordinates, I didn't write the coordinates for the gradient ON THE PAPER ITSELF, but Mr Thong said that if your working had it it will be fine. Only thing is - are we supposed to write coordinates for other things apart from gradient? Such as the intersection point of the curve and the straight line? Not too sure. Couldn't do a part for question 2 so I think must have minused 2-3 marks, possible mistake at the pre-drawn graphs question means another marklost, not labelling the fucking graph means 1-2 marks lost. So the least I will get is 24, most I can get is maybe 27. Altough that seems... out of reach.

Argh. Kudos to Bryan Ching the smart fellow who seems to know everything, although sometimes he asks me for help.

Woah, so many people have been flaming me, most stupid thing of all is that its right here on my blog. Well actually, people who critcize me baselessly and ridiculously without any grounds are the people I don't mind. Neither do I mind people who state the obvious, such as the state of my mind. But however while I can tolerate this I cannot tolerate idiots who make smart-alec comments on my cbox and think they are a big deal, criticizing me for using numerous vulgarities and not have a proper blog skin and worshipping myself.

1) Vulgarities - My blog. My problem. Did I take a knife and force you to read it? While I understand that since a blog is something which relies on the people, I cannot be snobbish. But neither are people in the position to criticize me, especially on my cbox, about the vulgarities since I am very sure you use them too. Even if you do not, you should look beyond surface value as I am not a person who uses vulgarities so much that the meaning of my posts are clouded.

2) No proper blogskin - Same reason. My blog damn it.

3) Worshipping myself - Ok, I admit that this is ridiculous to most people. Even I find it ridiculous. After posting it, I read it and I find it quite outlandish. But then again, I feel motivated. So its to motivate myself. You cannot always rely on others. Self-reliance is also quite important.

To end off, I insist that I am not being snobbish as I know I have readers who do not post on my cbox because they find it a waste of time or to remain anonymous, and I know that they will not be as stupid as others to criticize me as they should know a very basic ethic of blogging - if you're not happy with someone's blog, just get out unless it violates the Seditions Act or some other law. If there is no basis, then the door to criticism is firmly closed unless you want to be an ignorant idiot.

A blog relies on the readers. And I hope that this post will only apply to the ignorant readers, not the enlightened ones. As for lesser viewership, it is expected as school has reopened and as most of us are sec 3s, the heat is on.

Its just like fishing. If there are not many fish, can you expect to get a huge catch? No. You will still get some fish, but not as many as the prime fishing season.

I end my post here. Notice I have not used a single vulgarity in this post. This shows that I can choose to post in a proper manner if I want to. Yes.

Yesterday's rain was wonderful. So fucking heavy, especially from the stretch from AMK to Yio Chu Kang. Cannot see a single thing. The grey Audi seemed to get scratched. It also sounded like a tyre punctured. When reach home I see damn heng nothing happen, lucky my mother never drive fast or it would mean a costly trip to the repair workshop. Woohoo, I love rain. Rain more. Feels good. Take away the sunshine for some days please. Seeing the hot sun everyday makes everyone hot and bothered, no?

And some asshole is stupid and shrieks for no reason. Bah. WHo cares.

Nowadays, I find that it is hard managing my stuff with all the fucking work. Its 11.119 but I'm fine because I usually sleep at 12 nowadays. Its hard balancing school work with learning to beat up people with a stick and of course, reading communist literature, searching through youtube and checking "communist81"'s videos for more stuff, relaxing, listening to techno. Its hard and all teachers are good so far, with one definite exception. That teacher is like a freaking speeding racing car and I find I can't catch up with her speed and I hope she would brake and slow down, like most racing cars. Otherwise, I hope the racing car crashes or spins out of control so I can catch up. Maybe so I can crash into it as well. Go figure what I mean if you feel like it.

My surroundings in the classroom are good and bad. The people in the north to the west are great. But the east and the south, there are these noisy bastards, fucking hell. Everyday kaopei so much. Hope one of them has a sore throat. Don't talk. Or maybe have to go for some competition or some shit. Because they're also eyesores. I look at them and I fell like vomitting.

The previous paragraph is probably me imagining things. Such negative people do not exist. I am going to follow the examples set by great people and hopefully I can emulate them.

Alright. As an honorable person I have done the same thing that the aggressor has done. Now I want to have nothing to do with all this bullshit because mathematics and science are more important. Humanities and languages shouldn't pose the same hefty problem with the exception of Chinese. And freaking 3 times a week CCA training. My studies more important. Freak it man.

I miss class 2-2 07 man. 3-3's very strange.

黄彦超万岁！黄彦超学习进步！最重要的是我的数学。他妈的，stupid a maths stuff in e maths, stupid quadratic graphs, KNN. Maths, well, will be my friend and enemy for my entire life it seems.

Mr Tan and Mr Yong teach very well, and chemistry doesn't seem so bad now. Physics seems the same. And oh fuck, there's biology tomorrow. Triple science combination will kill people man. Combined with 3 times a week CCA and 3 times a week tuition and school homework and tuition homework as well as my own revision. FUCK! CB. No choice. I will have to face it.